In a world where the rich are
getting richer and the poor are being exterminated in subtle ways... I can't say I have
much to actually celebrate today other than the recent Solstice. But I am happy with my
own company and the passing well-wishes of close friends. What more can a decent person
ask for these days.
I have been trying to get back to
the keyboard, but it isn't happening lately. Dianne is living away from me now and though
we are friends and I speak with her on the phone now and then, I have simply not adjusted
to it all yet.
In the meantime I am affronted by
things about my daughter and the goings on in her life. She is still very
events that have
left their mark... and as I have not been able to acquire
a decent income in spite of all my efforts for over 20 years, I have not been able to do anything
truly meaningful that I would
like to do about Claire's life and situation either.
I cancelled Page 2 of this
website some time ago. It was about Claire's fate and who and what caused
her "experience". But it
seemed to be too confronting to have an unknown composer presenting his own music
along with so much personal, emotional distressing detail up front
so early in the piece... or is it peace.
Of course I
could not refrain from mentioning it at the time, but it seems that what I was saying
then may have scared people who have the idea that musicians and
particularly composers, have no real lives and should at least
"sound like" rich celebrities. So I thought that by not talking about it, they would focus the
attention on the music instead.... But I may have been mistaken.
Of course my music comes from a
different "place" than so much "other music", though not all. I
have tried to compile a list of composers who have produced the kind
of stuff I feel is "like mine". I suspect it was
not only the magnificent genius of the creators of the SY99 synthesizer that gave me the
vehicle to manifest the music into a saved format, it was also the events that have been a
part of my life, that have enabled me to access the music from the depth
has had to come. In a sense, the stresses and challenges gave me no choice but to reach
into deeper levels of aesthetics and philosophically inspired realities
to contact the sort of music that
lifted me spiritually over those battlefields.
Most of my music I described as
ambient-classical until it became clear that it was not going to fit into any
common genre comfortably. Due to the sensitivity of the sounds and themes, much of it was
described as New Age, and that label, that identification, inspired me to reach into
particular direction like a dove seeking dry land, and in a way, I have been blessed by the journey.
Since that moment I have found that I have presented a kind of
Crossover between Classical and New Age music. So lately I just
refer to it in the files as "New Age Classical". That way you read
it which ever way you feel is appropriate.
It seems pretty clear
to me that my
taste in music is pretty much out of step with the majority of internet users
at the moment ,
and appealing to a minority. Those I
felt my music seemed to be meant for, seemed to be not usually involved with computers and
multimedia, though I guess that is changing. Not getting to my kind
of public easily, I unfortunately have not been able to make what I
consider to be
a viable income so far from internet sales. All other avenues of
distribution I have tried, have either
been beyond my means or fundamentally plagued by "dishonest dealers".
Though I have taken ten years to
learn so much and yet so little in the midst of the disastrous distractions, I am getting
to a point where I might be able to let it all go by and get on with the job with a new freshness.
Having come out of a very
different world that most people I have come into contact with, I am like someone recently
landed from another planet. So I spend a lot of time alone and trying
to make the best use of the time in my life I may have to fulfill
any fundamental goals and purposes.
Philosophically speaking, it
might be a long time before "the world" catches up to what I have been
"privileged to be a part of" in the 20th Century... I feel
luckier than many. It has felt like a
Templar kind of experience - as though I have lived my life in a "parallel world"
of what the "normal people" know of... They seem to thrive on
different things than me.
So many like to be involved in the wars, the genocide, the
economic plunder, the propaganda, false goals and all the forms of abuse and wasting of
human life and resources that has gone on unchecked for more years tan
I care to remember. I am now trying to survive in
the world created by these types... which threatens to bring us
all into what might best be called
"The Last Days". I think a massive change in human affairs
and attitudes simply MUST occur at
"this time" if we are going to be running things on this
planet for much longer anyway.
And so I watch and wait, and in
the meantime (picking up my fan and waving it briskly) I will work on my music and art
which I realise now, is perhaps not meant for "this time"...
he said theatrically. It will survive
though, and I hope it will be loved and appreciated I guess when the madness of this Age has passed
on a little bit.
I believe in
New Age" and it
is nothing to do with some of the pseudo-scientific, pseudo-psychological nonsense that is
being passed on to the innocent newer generations as New Age gobble-de-goop
time" either. It amazes me how strongly the
"dealers" in fantasies, lies, greed and
even death, have
managed to fool so much of the world... Sadly to say it is mainly because
profit and status and
greedy territorial obsession is what so many are motivated by.
If you look at how much time in a life it really to me seems like
such a waste.
However, it will not be much longer, I
believe, before the real New Age will begin strongly asserting itself. The "common
people" will demand "it" through a groundswell perhaps propelled by the Internet. I think music
like mine is for them and my
values are for them and my words are for them.
The current world
seem to be far too asleep to
understand these ideas without trying to pigeon-hole them in some
way. From my experience, they aren't trying very hard to
- though it is individuals who turn up in surprising places
and times that show me that they are
on the way to understanding the sort of things that We can get excited about and respond
to as well.
at this time
I think the chasm
mankind has slipped into is pretty deep. The climb out is a challenge the likes
of which has never existed before. The way forward to survive the near future
would seem to have to do with issues relating mainly to - Integrity, Justice, Courage, Education, Patience,
Modesty, Moderation and
Compassion, just to name a "few".
I believe there are a lot of very
"unwell beings" on this planet and a lot of Compassion is going to be needed to
deal with them. Most have no idea how unwell they are. Many do. The Internet reveals this plainly.
And there are
others who believe they are only a step away from some kind of
eternal "materially supported freedom". But these people seem to be actually deluded and know nothing of how
their "freedom" is so dependent upon other's entrapment
- Such is the state of the
current world's economic system for example.
It is no accident the world is in
this state. It is just that it takes so many words and so much work to make such a little
difference now against the power and influence of so many "Great Deceivers"
and "The Deceived".
In my humble
opinion, "Belief Systems" will have no place
in the New Age. Cold Scientific "fact" will be of little use... because it is
really what has been going on in the hearts of men that has, and probably has always been, the real source of all of
Mankind's troubles. Ignorance of the Nature of Self, Preoccupation with material
"wealth", "sensory pleasure" and the obsession
with power, control,
status and ego gratification. Good Grief! Why so many are willfully sliding downstream with the
torrent of degradation to an oblivion, takes a lot more than a just few words to reveal.
As I am so conscious of this kind of thing, I'll probably talk about it a lot as time goes by....
The concept of evolution or
growth is quite paradoxical as one looks at what is really happening. Scientific
development is an attempt to understand and lever upward the
plight of the human race, but the "driving
energy" is flawed; the motivations are so "human" in that they are limited
by their current Frames of Reference - and I mean "belief
systems" instead of "wisdoms".... Realities so crude and materially
motivated. You just have to read almost anything on the net about
America and the first thing you realise is that there is a
persistent bug or fly in the ointment" that shows itself all the
time. Money. The obsession with Money. "This is mine! That is
yours.... and shouldn't be... it should be mine too.." etc.
Sadly the Understandings of
Past, and even of recent times, have been all but destroyed, and the minds of men are flung into the
worst amnesia... Their willingness and capacity to understand is so damaged and
recalcitrant, that a great deal of healing simply must occur before
"The Ray of Understanding Light"
can penetrate their "darknesses".
Many seek the key to what they
seek to understand, but do not know what that understanding should be about in the first
place, and so cannot recognise the "key". Wealth, social status,
academic education and material possessions will never reveal it, though
they provide something for the "dizzy of spirit" to hold on to in the hope of surviving their
AND the "New Age" is not going to be a
general recovery. It is an individual recovery which must involve protecting ones fellows
against the maelstrom grabbing at them and seeking to drive them into unconsciousness.
Relative states of unconsciousness are so easily attained. Earthquakes
and "violent youth" can demonstrate that.
Earlier structures will gradually go as new stable data is embraced and the "new
knowledge" passes into the hands of the renewed parents and children of the New Age.
It's an old political ploy too. They say "the public have short
memories".... Well when "the common person" is not concerned
about the world - long term, this manipulation can be applied to
them by those who calculate they have something to gain - which
again - is all about materiality and about power and control.
As more individuals reach the
various levels of safety and release through self awareness and
responsibility, and take stock of what is going
on, they will eventually move forward with similar minded souls into
creating The Light of
the New World.
It is going to take things like
integrity, compassion, work and real study (as in observation) to build
"The Age of Kindness"... But not without,
above all, a lot of Courage.
So listen to my Personal Universe
Music and surrender to the experience of the "inner real self"
and we will meet at the other end of the rainbow soon enough.
(Damn! The box just
broke. Bloody soap everywhere.)
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